New Perspective

On Everything! I visited Photobucket today...can you tell?

Baby Boy

Eye On The Prize

If I can do it anyone can. I have lost ten pounds in 3 weeks and I feel so much better already. I am trying like crazy to get rid of my weight that I gained while I was pregnant just 5 months ago. I gained 60 lbs while I was preggers!!!! 10 down 50 to go!!!!!! This is a little pep talk to myself, because I am being tempted by the brownies in the kitchen. Oh, and Josh is 5 months today!!!!!!!! Love you SOOOOO much!

Secret Life of Bees

Amazing Movie. My Grandma suggested I watch it and I loved it! It was SO sad, but SO beautiful. I don't think I ever cried so much during a movie. It reminded me of my darling sister, Helen. Have a Happy Sunday Everyone!

Plan B

So much happened in July. Some things are too personal to blog. All that I know is I'm breathing, and my son and I are safe. My heart may be broken, but time heals all.
My son is the single most important thing to me. I fell in love about 5 months ago to the sweetest little bald toothless guy. He stole my heart and manages to do it again and again with the littlest things. A gummy grin, a slobbery fist, his curious blue eyes, his little laugh. It all melts this mama.

I never imagined I'd be 21 years old with a new baby and not have someone by my side. But no one is better than the wrong someone. This baby of mine, he is something. He deserves the best life has to offer. We will have a wonderful life he and I. I have so many plans for our future. With God, Family , and Friends....everything will be just ducky:)

Me This Week

Listening to Tony Robbins
Working Out twice a day.
Loving the Mountains.
Visiting Family I've missed sooo much.
Showing my son new things and new places.
Finding Myself.
Finding Peace.
Forever loving Joshua.

New Mama

So, I have started a working out with my Aunt Merrilee. She's kicking my butt. She has got me doing sit ups, lunges, planks, and treadmill work. I've been doing weight training. We took before pictures..and hopefully our after pictures will look awesome. I'm also working on my tan. Vacation is awesome:) We had a 70's dress up birthday party for Mer. Everybody stared when we went out to eat and at the movies. We saw the movie Salt because it has girl power:) It was actually pretty good. Joshua is loving meeting all his cousins and relatives...he still doesn't know what to make of Gramp.

Downside Up

AGAIN.

Sometimes just when your heart feels as though it belongs, when the fear of change is gone everything goes topsy turvy. Is it so much to ask that love last forever. Is it too much to ask that love be true. One things is for certain, I will love him forever and a day. I will always love him. He is my first love, the father of my child, my grow old with lover. Bu we changed. I changed when I became a mother,

My Son

You make every day wonderful. I can't believe how fast you are growing, how much you are learning. I am so proud. You are my everything. Thank You for being my darling little boy.
Thanks for being my son.
My Son.

Ordinary Day

And as he spoke, he spoke ordinary words
Although they did not feel
For I felt what I had not felt before
And you'd swear those words could heal.
And as I looked up into those eyes
His vision borrows mine.
And I know he's no stranger,
For I feel I've held him for all of time.


Please come with me,
See what I see.
Touch the stars for time will not flee.
Time will not flee.
Can you see? -Vanessa Carlton